My name is Tamar, I'm 16 and this is where I say what I want to say you dumb African
"Life it’s self is only a vision, a dream, nothing exists in an empty space. And you... you are nothing but a thought. "

I think this is going to be my 100th post! :o
Anyways, I didn't do anything today, I slept in for a long time LOL... I really didn't do shit all today, I was suppose to go tanning but I never went... I saw my cat on my bed right? So I went to go pet her a bit and ended up sleeping beside her LOL, I woke up at like 5ish and talked to Chris, this guy in my class, about what was going to happen today.
You see, me, Jolanta, and Marcy planned to have a "girls day" but Marcy was working so I asked Jolanta to come over and we could do a photo shoot and chill and talk about everything and she agreed, then I said how we can drink and shit, and she's like yeah for sure, so that was suppose to happen today or tomorrow or something like that. I was talking about it in class with Chris and Ashton and we planned that we could go to someones house and all of us drink together and chill. So Friday came and Chris kept asking me what's going to happen and shit and I'm all I don't even fucking know lol. So basically Jolanta couldn't come today but she's coming tomorrow for the photo shoot and we could chill and talk. So we're not drinking tomorrow, or today or whatever, which kind of pisses me off because I want to get drunk with that sexy bitch! :(... But that's okay lol, next time! :O

I think Sarkis is going to come next weekend... that should be fun? :s... I'm honestly scared for him coming... for MANY ass reasons, such as...

1. What if he comes and we do "stuff" and then goes back home and meets a dumb whore and flirts with her, I'm going to feel like a slut.
2. I fee like it's going to be so god damn awkward when he comes because we were in a relationship and when we didn't have anything to do we would make out, cuddle and do what couples do, but now that we're not I feel awkward... I don't do the whole "friends with benefits" thing.
3. He comes here, I see him and fall for him all over again. I'm still madly in love with him and him talking to other girls hurts enough, and seeing him, it's like asking me to stay in love with him -_-'

I guess those are the main negative reasons why I don't want him coming... the positive ones are that I really want to see him, I miss being held and kissed and loved and all that and I really want it again... just once, one more god damn time. Like I haven't kissed anyone, or done anything for that matter, in 2 months... and yeah it's kind of hard... I want to feel it one more time :(...
I don't know, I guess I'll just have to wait and see... peace outt


RATxo