My name is Tamar, I'm 16 and this is where I say what I want to say you dumb African
"Life it’s self is only a vision, a dream, nothing exists in an empty space. And you... you are nothing but a thought. "

Hello.
So Jolanta didn’t come today… :\
She said she was feeling sick and shit; my guess is because she hasn’t slept properly in a while so it’s understandable, it’s happened to me before lol. I was mad at first, but I just thought about the summer, she’ll be free more because we won’t have school so I don’t mind, we’ll eventually chill lol, plus she’s being honest so that’s a plus :).
So let’s talk about last night… ;)
I went to Chris’s house at like 2, stayed there until like 5AM lol. Okay what had happen was LMFAO… I got to his house, we went up to his room, talked for a bit, and then I gave him the alcohol, Smirnoff of course lol, he drank a bit, I took like a couple of shots, then after like 10 minutes he felt it and w/e LOL… so we were chilling and I said something about the ceiling and how I would look for pictures and I guess the action I did was funny because he started laughing, then I started laughing and then for like a good hour or so we were laughing… like nonstop, we just kept going, it was so fucking funny, it got to the point where I was just laughing at his laugh cause it sounded so fucking funny LMFAO… oh god, I honestly wish I could go back in time and do that again, my abs hurt so bad today LOL, we were like rolling all over the bed, 3 times I almost fell off, we hit heads like twice and I don’t know it was just so funny, I almost pissed my pants and I started crying from laughing so hard LOL.
After a good hour of laughing we ended up falling asleep then at like 4:50 salpy’s like get ready I’m coming and I’m all alright lol, so I left. I tried to wake that fool up but he wouldn’t so I’m like fack it and I just left. I wanted to find a piece of paper to leave a note saying how I left and to talk to me tomorrow or whatever but I couldn’t find one, so I just left lol.
Over all it was a good night with him, not going to lie, I haven’t laughed that hard in a while so it’s good :)
I’m going to put a lot of make-up on now and take pictures because I’m bored and have nothing better to do, peace out

RATxo

I think this is going to be my 100th post! :o
Anyways, I didn't do anything today, I slept in for a long time LOL... I really didn't do shit all today, I was suppose to go tanning but I never went... I saw my cat on my bed right? So I went to go pet her a bit and ended up sleeping beside her LOL, I woke up at like 5ish and talked to Chris, this guy in my class, about what was going to happen today.
You see, me, Jolanta, and Marcy planned to have a "girls day" but Marcy was working so I asked Jolanta to come over and we could do a photo shoot and chill and talk about everything and she agreed, then I said how we can drink and shit, and she's like yeah for sure, so that was suppose to happen today or tomorrow or something like that. I was talking about it in class with Chris and Ashton and we planned that we could go to someones house and all of us drink together and chill. So Friday came and Chris kept asking me what's going to happen and shit and I'm all I don't even fucking know lol. So basically Jolanta couldn't come today but she's coming tomorrow for the photo shoot and we could chill and talk. So we're not drinking tomorrow, or today or whatever, which kind of pisses me off because I want to get drunk with that sexy bitch! :(... But that's okay lol, next time! :O

I think Sarkis is going to come next weekend... that should be fun? :s... I'm honestly scared for him coming... for MANY ass reasons, such as...

1. What if he comes and we do "stuff" and then goes back home and meets a dumb whore and flirts with her, I'm going to feel like a slut.
2. I fee like it's going to be so god damn awkward when he comes because we were in a relationship and when we didn't have anything to do we would make out, cuddle and do what couples do, but now that we're not I feel awkward... I don't do the whole "friends with benefits" thing.
3. He comes here, I see him and fall for him all over again. I'm still madly in love with him and him talking to other girls hurts enough, and seeing him, it's like asking me to stay in love with him -_-'

I guess those are the main negative reasons why I don't want him coming... the positive ones are that I really want to see him, I miss being held and kissed and loved and all that and I really want it again... just once, one more god damn time. Like I haven't kissed anyone, or done anything for that matter, in 2 months... and yeah it's kind of hard... I want to feel it one more time :(...
I don't know, I guess I'll just have to wait and see... peace outt


RATxo

Hello.
Today was boring, nothing happen at all so I can't say anything lol. I slept in because I didn't go to school because everyone is practically suspended so there's no point in going, there would of been like 4 people in class... so... LOl.
I woke up with a huge headache, it's finally gone now, but I feel really sick :(
OH, yesterday me and Sarkis (my ex) were on the phone for the first time, and in a long time we had a long ass conversation and yeah we just reminisced on how we met, how we were, and just things we’ve been through... anyways we ended up falling asleep on the phone... It was perfect. My phone died though so that's how I know he didn't hang up and honestly it really touched my heart... I know that sounds stupid but, I'm still in love with him and that hasn't happen in a long time and for him to stay on the phone means a lot to me. Oh by the way we broke up on November, 8th, 2009. So we were together for 9 months and 8 days… the reason we broke up is stupid… let’s just say his mom hates me. But yeah, that happened and it felt nice…. I wonder if we’re going to talk tonight… :o
I’m still checking to see what’s going to happen with the whole photo shoot with Jolanta and us drinking and shit,

Yeah I just got back from Diamond Jims… I’m not even going to bother finishing that last sentence and thought off, I find it funny LMAO.
While at Diamond Jims I saw something I don’t ever want to see again, again. MY BROTHERS DICK.
Uggggggggh…. ;8

Holy shit it's been too long!
I feel like a sex addict who hasn't gotten laid in like 7 months HAHAH HEHE HOHO HAAIIIII.
ANYWAYS BIG NEWS, LOTS AND LOTS OF NEWS SO LETS MAKE THIS FAST!
I no longer have a boyfriend, I no longer have my septum pierced, I am no longer in main stream school I'm in "Alt ed" Alternative education meaning where all the bad students go so they can get credits... yes... I am one of those bad students :(
I got an Ipod touch, i still have my cell phone, I'm no longer friends with Alisha and Elysia, still friends with Taline, I'm "bestfriends" with Jolanta, I did " "" " because I don't call anyone my bestfriend anymore, don't ask, I just don't use that tittle, I got a new sexy ass camera the Nikon D3000! hehehehe anddddd umm... Yeah that's all I can think of at the moment.. OH BIG ONE I'M BLONDE NOW! haha
So yeah that was a cool update! I'll be blogging more because summers coming up and I have nothing better to do so might as well write pages and pages of how I feel and my depression LMFAO... and all the sexy times I'm having, GOSHH I'm not emo or anything... o.o... LOL
OH
I
HAVE A PHOTO SHOOT THIS WEEKEND, hopefully, and that will also be a drinking sesh with my sexy gurrrrrrl frannnn LOL. AND yeah that's about it.

AND OMG THIS IS SO THE FIRST POST OF 2010!!! HEHEHEHEHEH