My name is Tamar, I'm 16 and this is where I say what I want to say you dumb African
"Life it’s self is only a vision, a dream, nothing exists in an empty space. And you... you are nothing but a thought. "

I'm sitting here listening to lil’ Wayne and feeling extremely fat and ugly and disgusting. As usual. Anyways yesterday was pretty fun, i came over to Taline's house and we chilled a little bit, then got ready around 3:30ish to go to Vaughn Mills with the Turkish children. GOD there so fucking annoying LOL. Anyways we walked around all.....day.. LOL....;8. It was pretty fun though; I’m not going to lie ahaha. So after when we had to leave me and Taline were waiting in the front for her mom and the Turkish children, and we were running outside and playing in the snow, running and sliding ahah, it was fun. Until.... they came...and I fell.... on my ass...;8... LOOOLLLL it was so fucking funny though, like the joke is, I slide and then when I was just standing there I fell LMFAO! I swear those whore's gave me and Taline a curse ;8 ahah. So after that we came home and just chilled. I went to bed around 3am or so, I’m not sure. It's 12:30 right now and Taline is still sleeping hehe. Ummm oh haha while I was sleeping, Taline's mom kept waking me up because she was getting jealous that coco loves me more LMFAO! she would always be like "what jubajubajuba, how can you leave meh fo Tamar? huh, yesss you love her moreee??? look at chu shleppen wif herrrr, yeaahhh you so cute, why you make me jealous like this" LMFAOOO it was so cute. Okay remember the whole Ben situation? Well anyways I unlocked my msn today and saw that he left me a message saying how sorry he was, and how he was passed out on the floor or some shit and he’s just so sorry. SO I want onto his MySpace and left him a comment saying "I don't give a flying fuck how sorry you are. Do you have any idea how pissed off they made me? HOW FUCKING MAD I WAS? No you don't. And for some reason, I can't seem to get this off my mind and be like "oh well he was drunk, let it slide" I’m not like that Ben, you'll soon realize this. Before I go off cussing and snap on your wall or comment place, what the fuck ever. I'll wait until you get back on msn to let you know what happened. Maybe you can explain to me why you have such immature, retarded, fucked friends, that don’t know how to stay off other people’s msn. Because you know this isn’t the 1st time it happened, it’s like the hundredth or some shit. Like fuck man, do I honesty have to make you go on cam for 2 seconds to make sure I’m fucking talking to you and not your stupid friends? I don’t know what you did after you found out, but I’m sure it wasn’t much. A whole weekend I’ve been sitting here stressing over this. Congratulations Ben, you just gave me the biggest turn off I’ve ever had. Ugh god I am so pissed off at you." was that too mean? He deserved that right? I mean its not fair… sigh…I don’t know. I’m hoping he will just come online so I can just fucking talk to him and straighten this shit out. Anyways I don’t know exactly what were going to be doing today, but I hope its fun :D I ate so much yesterday, I’m so fat. It’s so hard for me not to gain, its like EVERYTHING I eat goes straight to my fat and just adds on. FUCK I hate my body so fucking much. Whatever, I’ll blog it later. Peace


xoRAT

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