My name is Tamar, I'm 16 and this is where I say what I want to say you dumb African
"Life it’s self is only a vision, a dream, nothing exists in an empty space. And you... you are nothing but a thought. "

Hey everyone, I was downstairs watching TV right, and the Polar Express came on right, and I was watching it and there's this one part in the movie where this girl and little boy sing this song, and it just made me think. It made me think about when I was younger and how Christmas used to be. All my family together, opening up a bunch of presents, everyone was happy and full of joy and love. I honestly really miss that. I miss the days where my family didn't hate me for being me, the times where we all got along, where i would get like 20 presents in one night, everyone was happy with everyone around. Putting up the Christmas tree was more then just putting up the Christmas tree, I actually enjoyed it, I would bother my mom a month before asking her if we could put it up, I’d ask her all the time, putting the ornaments on, it was so much fun... what happened? Honestly... Like Christmas was the best when I was younger. I really miss it. I think about it and I just sit and wonder. I mean my mom asked me to put the ornaments on the Christmas tree and I felt so bothered, I didn’t want to do it... I got mad that she asked me.... I was like "UGH wtf why can't you just do it >:( ".... o.o...It surprises me, it really does. I remember when we would be at our cousin's house and i would be so excited when we were allowed to open up the presents... when one of my cousin's dressed up like Santa and I would believe it was him! I would sit on his lap and just be so happy Santa came to our house that night, him handing us the presents. Now when that happens i just want it to hurry up and be over with. Looking at my younger cousins going to "Santa" I’d watch and be like "omfg wow they seriously believe it’s him?" O.O.....I don't understand what happened... maybe it’s just me and my family, but damn. OH! And like remember those days when the snow would fall for the first time? and your mom or dad or w/e would wake you up call you down and be like "There's snow outside!".. I remember that, I would get up so fast, run down and look outside, then get ready and go to school... And at school we couldn’t wait until recess to play with the snow... snow ball fights, forts, ice queen things LOL... ugh...Then you would get home and drink hot chocolate and like dress up and play outside some more. I remember that, I would always do it with my sister haha... awww :(... We would build a snow man, and my brother would always threaten to kill him, and I would get so fucking mad that I would cry LOOL. OHHH then I would sit and watch the Christmas show... AWW omfg I LOVE the Christmas shows, there seriously the best. Ugh the good old days. My wish for Christmas is to have it like it was before.
Iuno those are just my thoughts about it.


xoRAT

Labels: children, christmas, family, life